I Should Know

What is it like to have a beautiful, sexy body and never get seen naked?  never get caressed sexually?

I should know.

What is it like to have been a world traveler, to exotic, tropical and famous places, and then grounded for years, watching friends take long vacations while never leaving the radius of my city?

I should know.

What is it like to put 4 kids to bed every.single.night. and never get more than one, maybe two nights break?  to be the only one singing them to sleep and tucking them in?  never to get tucked in myself?

I should know.

What is it like to have spent years in school, gaining hours and years of higher education, piling up a wealth of knowledge and experience, and yet to have no platform for ministry, no classroom of students, few who even recognize my qualifications and passion?

I should know.

What is it like to have gifts and passions and skills that never seem to be used, while instead filling boring days and hours washing dishes and laundry, feeding small bellies and cleaning messes?

I should know.

"I cry aloud to the Lord,

I lift up my voice for mercy.

I pour out my complaint before him;

Before him I tell my trouble.

When my spirit grows faint within me

it is you who know my way." Psalm 142

"To the Lord I cry aloud,

and He answers me..." Psalm 3

What was it like to leave a heavenly throne and become poor, so that you could become spiritually rich?

I should know.

What was it like to be totally alone and isolated in the desert 40 days with no food and in great weakness to face the world's fiercest temptation against the enemy of souls?

I should know.

What was it like to remain celibate my whole life only to be seen naked as men beat and mocked me and made my shame a laughingstock?

I should know.

What was it like to need friends in the hour of death, only to find they had failed to stay awake, leaving me to sweat prayers of agony alone?

I should know.

What will it be like to see my face in glory and to become clothed in robes of righteousness, to receive at last the great love I have for you in all its fullness?

Believe me, I know.

What will it be like when you come into my presence and hear me say, "Well done, good and faithful servant...now enter the kingdom prepared for you and share in my happiness!" 

Believe me, I know.

What will it be like to live forever in a mansion prepared just for you, feasting at my table of delights and enjoying intimate fellowship with me forever?

Believe me, I know.

What will it be like when I wipe way every tear from your eyes and you dance before me as a bride--never to experience mourning or crying or pain again?  to inherit my kingdom and share in reigning with me forever?

Believe me, I know.

"So do not throw away your confidence.

It will be richly rewarded.

You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God,

you will receive what He has promised.

For in just a very little while,

He who is coming will come and will not delay.

But my righteous one will live by faith."

Hebrews 10